Thank you for your comment and interest in my poetry. The emotions expressed in my writing are not necessarily reflective of my personal life, but rather a representation of universal experiences and feelings that many people can relate to. Love can be both a source of great joy and immense pain, and the poem is meant to explore those conflicting emotions. It is often the case that one can feel both happy and unhappy at the same time in a relationship, and that is what I have tried to capture in my writing.